Men read about my beliefs and attitudes and ask me where They can get a female or slave like me. Guess, what? You can’t.
i am not a ready-made commodity You can pick off a shelf at Kmart or Wallmart. i am someone who evolved over time. To get a slave like me, You need to find someone like who i was 10 years ago and be willing to put in the time and energy to help her evolve into someone like me, or someone not like me, as suits You.
i did not start out here, i ended up here. And the well kept secret is, 9 out of 10 submissives, deep down want to end up here as well. They want to be able to say ‘yes’ to everything You ask because they have come to know and trust You that deeply. They want to lay on the floor at Your feet, with Your foot on their neck and just surrender to melting into the floor and being. They want to be all of everything to You, in every way You could ever want and more.
But that is not how they will turn up to meet You. Even i don’t turn up to meet someone that way. They will hold it back, keep it hidden because they need to trust You first.
As for someone like me, i have fought personal battles. i have been through hell and back and brought a truck load of crap with me. i have scars You cannot see and more hidden mines than a rice field in Vietnam.
For me to kneel at someone’s feet, i need to know You are stronger than i am, because i’ve carried that crap around a long time, i’m very strong myself. i’ve worked through some, am working through some and am yet to discover what some of it might be. i need to know You can handle whatever i can throw at You because i don’t know what i have to throw. i need to be able to open my bag of crap for You to see inside and know You won’t look at me horrified and run away. i need to know You can handle it.
A female is not vulnerable when she lies naked. She is not vulnerable when she is lies tied and naked. A female is vulnerable when she opens that bag of crap and lets You look inside.
Can You handle all that? Can You look in my bag and not shudder? Can You not only accept i have that bag, but take it from me and still find me acceptable?
That is what all submissives secretly desire. That is what will get You a devoted, loving submissive or slave.
